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dead dawg
25 March 2020 @ 05:48 pm
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Due to some recent issues regarding the content of my journal, it's now friends only with the exception of a few public posts. :) 
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dead dawg
19 December 2011 @ 05:17 am

i have found now that i really only post here when there is something in my head i cannot quite release from my mouth, but i need to put somewhere-- even if it is vague-things that only i have full understanding of.

i go through these phases of feeling that i am not a good friend/person/team mate/girlfriend/writer/whatever every so often, and they are entirely unpleasant. usually it means i need to get out of the house and be around people to reassure myself that these are things i've put in my head. guess i'll have to find an opportunity somewhere. working again will help, too. unemployment takes such a toll on self-worth. it's strange how much we've come to identify ourselves with our wages.

a few people have asked how madeleine is doing -- she's much better! she lost a ton of weight which i am now trying to recoup (did i mention she loves bacon more than most things? cat after my own heart!) but she's active and back to her old beebong harassing self. with the donations everyone contributed, we were able to cover half her medical expenses, which was amazing and more than i ever expected. it was a very humbling and wonderful experience. i am reminded that, even when i am feeling Defeated, i am a part of several truly great communities of people and friends and i am so, so grateful for that. sometimes it is difficult for me to express myself on that, but please-- believe me when i say that every comment, every note, every reblog and dollar -- i cannot thank everyone enough. evan and i are planning to give something a little Special to everyone who contributed and spread the word in january-- we'll keep you folks updated.

on that note, i am around in other places if people want to have a better update of my daily life:



dead dawg
15 November 2011 @ 12:21 am

Hi all.

On Saturday I came home from an overnight trip to find my seventeen year-old cat Madeliene acting unlike herself. After seeing that she was disinterested in food and showing no improvement the next morning, I brought her to the emergency vet clinic where she still is today. Her diagnosis is still uncertain: they're unsure what is causing her to rapidly become so ill, and in the process of discovering what could be wrong, the bills have stacked up pretty high.

So far, the costs of Madeliene's vet bills have racked up about $1000, and since she's still being treated, it's likely to go up. As most of you know, I've been unemployed since August and both myself and Evan are on unemployment, with me pending to potentially lose my unemployment as early as next week. My mother, whom many of you know as artists who've done work for her, or LARPers who've played with her, is an entirely giving creature: she's paid for literally everything in the absence of me being able to. While I intend to pay what I can back to her, I know my current financial limitations. And so I'm looking toward others who may be inclined to give a little generosity where she's been kind to me, or maybe some of you too.

This is a two-tiered endeavor: ideally, I'd like to run an auction or a kickstarter to raise funds. That being said, if anyone has anything to contribute to that auction, whether it's art or fursuiting bits or games or what-have-you -- I would love to be able to put that towards this cause. Secondly, I will also be making a paypal account to accept donations on her behalf.

If anyone would like to help out with either of this things, send me an email at youthculture@gmail.com. This is the cat who has been with me for the majority of my life, and a woman who has supported myself and others no matter the cost. I promise you, every penny counts.

Current donations: $695
Goal: $1200
Remaining: $505

dead dawg
03 June 2011 @ 11:15 pm

Heart & Sole Walk is this weekend! I've gotten a few cash donations from folks at work, but I could use some support from people boosting the signal and donating a few bucks so me and Evan can make it over the hundred dollar mark! Yay!

If you want to know more about The Potter League, you can check out this video of their new facility from 2009!

Donate or link here!
dead dawg
12 December 2010 @ 04:45 pm
- february 18th doesn't really seem like that long, but it really is almost a year. wow.

- yesterday was a Bad Brain day. my self esteem took a shot and didn't recover, and i spent the whole day being unintentionally ignored at work. it colored my whole day and this morning woke up still not 100%. feh.

- cataclysm has been very fun and very intense. they took a lot more time and involvement with the quests -- i've really been enjoying the lore of the game again. uldum is gorgeous.

-i picked up a trio of degus that, while sweet, are a source of problems. one of the degus i adopted is sick -- and when degus are sick, they go downhill pretty quickly. i'm just hoping i started medicating him before it's too late.

- jeanie finally got a new computer for herself (she's been using my laptop since we moved to the apartment) and i cleaned out her account. it cleared up 65 gb of space, lol.

- evan's flying down here on the 29th. thus begins a new adventure.
dead dawg
16 February 2010 @ 10:47 pm

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back here. Tell me anything. Tell me what you really think of me or yourself. Anything.

Post anonymously. Speak honestly. Post as many times as you like. IP logging is off.
dead dawg
16 December 2009 @ 07:25 am

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Current Mood: gratefulgrateful
dead dawg
08 November 2009 @ 03:14 pm

i had a pretty amazing night, as you might imagine.

went to emerson for an open house. was also amazing.

you know? money's tight and i have a lot of work on my plate.. but life is pretty good.

also: sean said he'd take a zombie bite for me. is it sad that that's the sweetest thing anyone's ever said to me?

chop chop, dig dig. back to work.
Current Mood: contentcontent
dead dawg
06 November 2009 @ 06:26 pm

Most of you have already heard about Fort Hood by now, so I'll spare you.

However, I discovered that one of our Alliance players, Joy, who I met last National event and came to the last Caldaria event, the weekend before she was deployed, was there during the incident and was shot. She's headed into surgery tomorrow. I'd appreciate it if you would keep her and her husband, who is driving out fifteen hours to be with her, in your thoughts. 
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dead dawg
27 August 2009 @ 01:49 am

Jesus christ, if I could keep this cat, I totally fucking would. Such a god-damn sweetheart:

Still looking for a home! He needs to find a new place to live by Sunday.